Archives For The Days Reflections
Had a wonderful weekend away with the family in our VW Westfalia motor home. Decided to follow up my first foray (see previous Busy Bee One post) with the bee hives and my plan was to take some infrared photographs of the hives and to get really close (inches from the hive entrance) with my Canon EF-S 10-22 mm wide angle lens and capture the bees flying in and out of the hive.
I had Lucy (a beautifully funny boarder terrier who is now two years old in the photo above she was just 6 weeks old ahhh) with me and had just finished photographing some wonderful poppies in colour and infrared having got them in the can. When I have processed these in Photoshop CS4 I will be putting them up on the website
I walked over to the hives. All the hives there were busy as Saturday was a perfect sunny day but still had fluffy white clouds in the sky always makes a more interesting photograph.
So there I stood with my camera set to a suitably fast enough shutter speed of 1/1000th to freeze the bees in flight. I must admit the thought of been attacked by a swarm of bees did cross my mind but was quickly dismissed as I was not doing them any harm was I?
The next thing I knew was that there was is a very very angry bee bussing very close to my face and showing a particular unhealthy interest in my nose! I tried in vain to get it away from its intended target. The next indication that this was going to really end in tears was the very strong and distinct warning smell the bee gave off. All alarmed bees will release a pheromone that stimulates the attack response in other bees.
Oh dear I was in trouble and quite a walk away from the van and sanctuary. The chain of events had been set I then felt the inevitable excruciating sting go in I immediately felt like I had been punched straight on the nose and within a few seconds I could feel a intense headache and huge pain around my nose. I retreated pretty quickly from the obvious danger I had put myself and the dog in tears streaming down my face with the pain as I stumbled away. I was left just hoping and praying none of the defending bees little friends were coming after me as well!
Of course when I got back to the van both Sophie and Nick thought it was hysterically funny and could not believe how daft I had been.
I had bought one of those insect bite pens from the chemist obviously a long time ago as it had use by 2005! I must say that they really do help take some of the sting away although the nose was not happy for many hours after.
So what have I learnt from this little adventure? Go with my first instinct? Easy in hindsight. Sometimes your first instinct is not necessarily the right and best choice.
Well clearly as far as the bee was concerned I was obviously a big threat to the hive. My perception of not being a threat to the hive was clearly not the same as the bees! It sacrificed its life to save the whole hives future generations and survival. I have learnt a very painful lesson and sometimes it takes a bit of pain to re focus us on the things in life that are really important we can all end up wandering off on our own a bit like the lost sheep. Thank God for the good shepherd eh?
I must admit I was full of mixed emotions when out of the blue 26 years latter I received a couple of emails in April from fellow students from my Photography Editorial and Advertising College course asking if it was really me. We girls are usually harder to track down having changed maiden names etc. All I can say is thank God for the technology we have at our disposal today and for my peers who were determined to find as many of us as possible. How people traced loved ones before this invention only God knows!
As the email sat in my In Box I was challenged to look back and examine “just what had Janine achieved over the last 26 years”?
What was important to me? My pride. My wealth? My professional achievements? What were my idols? What actually was important to me?
I also was not sure I wanted to open up a period of my life that was so full of hope and aspirations to what the future would hold for me and my college peers. What would I find?
I was really concerned about having to discuss the loss of our son Daniel who died when he was one year old. A experience no one wants to ever go through. We are not supposed to bury our children. How could I not include him when I was bound to be asked “Do you have any children”? For me this has always been a very difficult question to answer.
As the emails whizzed back and forth and I started to look at the Facebook profiles to get a idea of what people had been up to I then decided to contact my closest friend Kate from my college time. I had lost contact with everyone and had often thought about the characters and friendships. So I was now poised with an opportunity to take the risk and reopen this part of my life. I took the plunge and emailed Kate and we spoke for the first time on the phone for an hour. It was just like we had left the room for a moment and then returned! We decided to meet in London to have a proper catch up before the main event which you can read about in my previous post.
Lord will only enter into your life if you allow him to which is really cool he will never force his way in ! It’s up to the individual to make that decision.
The painting by William Holman Hunt played and still does a very significant part in my walk with God.I finally let the Lord into my life 5 years ago. My decision which was to be a very gradual process (of which I will share with you at a latter date) has totally changed my life for the better. I am no longer alone to try and deal with what life can sometimes throw at you. The Lord has graciously shown me who I am, gently healing painful wounds that we all take on as we move through our individual journeys.
I shared this reunion opportunity and concerns with friends and we prayed for the Lords guidance and protection.
We all compare ourselves with others it a human thing to do and that is what my initial reaction was regarding this reunion as I was sure everyone else was doing the same exercise.
My conclusions to my initial question: “What have you achieved over the last 26 years Janine”? Is this:
I am a child of God. I am secure in God. I finally know who I am. I am no longer on my own. Money does not buy you happiness or real friends. I have a wonderful supporting husband who has been with me through tough times and good times. We have been together since I was 16. We have two beautiful children on this Earth and one whom I will be reunited with at a latter date. I have truly been released from many past hurts.
I am free to take photographs that give me immense pleasure and satisfaction. I am able to express my love for Gods creation, this beautiful world. Through this blog and website I hope to share what he puts on my heart.
Thanks for reading this far.Please do leave your comments and thoughts they are all really appreciated
PS. The reunion was amazing it was such good fun to see all my peers to catch up and to share our lives again after 26 years we all seemed very comfortable in each others company I have not laughed so much. It was wonderful time I will never forget. Old friends reunited not to be lost again and to think I was contemplating not going!
Thanks guys for such a fantastic time xxx
Bees are amazing creatures just focused on gettting their pollen back to the hive to off load then out again all for the good of the hive. I watched a beehive a couple of weks ago and noticed the bees going into the hive generally used the right side of the entrance and the outgoing bees used the left! We have a lot to learn from bees how they work for the greater good. A bee could never be accused of been selfish or lazy.
As I watched this hive of activity I observed that some returning bees had more pollen on their legs than others. as I was reflecting on this I felt the lord gently encourage me as sometimes when we are trying to work hard for the Lord we often feel we are not doing as well as others around us. What the Lord said to me was that you may feel or think you are not bringing much to the table but all the bees will be returning with different types of honey needed for different jobs its sometimes not that obvious. So lets not get discouraged and compare as every little helps the whole.
Took this photos on Sunday with my new camera Panasonic lumix DMC LX5. I am impressed with the quality and the amazing close ups you can achieve in Macro to within 1 cm pretty awsome stuff. This was one of the reasons for choosing this lens the angles you can achieve with this close up ability is great plus it has a Leica lens. I hope to add to the blog with any interesting images taken with this camera as I get to explore all its functions. It also has video which could be fun to experiment with.
Well just back from the smoke it was crazy today Circle line closed so everyone squeezed onto less trains. It was worth it to meet my mate Kate from 32 years ago (we were photography students ) as soon as we meet we were laughing, talking laughing ,and crying with laughter. It was as if one of us had just come back into the room! Not 32 years latter.
It was so amusing as one of us could not remember a name the other would fill in the missing name. I had no recall of a particular tutor Kate was describing obviously major situations he was involved in but I still had no recall. Its weird how the mind works. We decided to catch up before the main event were we will meet up with hopefully 20 + of the other photography students next Saturday it is going to be fascinating . Watch this space!
Sorry didn’t take any photos so I have uploaded a experiment (Deck chairs in Brighton) with PhotoShop it links with some sequence ideas I have been playing around with. The other shots are in my Experimention gallery on the right and Gallery : Latest Uploads. Let me know what you think.
Today was a massive catch up before we knew it we were been asked to leave the V & A because they were closing we had been talking for 6 hours ! We went on to continue catching up in Harvey Nichols. Food was good but why do we have to have our ears assaulted with very loud tinny music so bad that we had to ask for it to be turned down. People don’t go to eateries to listen to the music they go to talk and socialise there’s back ground music then then there’s ear bleeding.
We have come to the conclusion that even though we only shared just 3 years of our life this was during a pivotal period and these shared experiences and the mutual support we had for one another during some difficult times outlasted the gap of 32 years.
Kate is now a very successful award winning international potter go check her site her work is very unique and simply stunning. http://www.katemcbride.co.uk/
Until next time.
Off to see a fellow photography student we lost touch with each other 26 years ago! Going to meet her and have a massive catch up! If I see anything interesting to photograph I’m going to try WordPress app for Android and up load to my blog. We have all come a long way from that darkroom !